Am I looking for god?

My dad has told me repeatedly recently that it's obvious to him (a Christian) that I'm "looking for god" and that he's confident i shall find him.

His idea that my active atheism is simply an expression of my search for god is quite an interesting one, i agree, but we all know just how closed minded religious folk are sometimes and surely it must ease his conscience for him to feel that his interpretation, once again, is righteous, as his ignorant interpretation of scripture always has done.

Now, about this god, previously, i have put it to my dad, in response, that he can guarantee with certainty that, should i ever find a god, he can be "quite sure that it will not be the Christian god of misery and submission, pain and torture, ignorance and bigotry, slavery, rape and famine; Jesus, who would rather shame gays than give an orphan a family, can literally go to hell"... But, i admit, upon reviewing the following evidence, it has come to my attention that perhaps i am looking for this god after all:

Christianity has been the backbone of ignorance for 2000 years, it serves only to control the lives of it's following by showering them with bigoted dogma, ignorance and petty cowardliness, and that's before we mention it's views on women, blacks, homosexuals and children. Further to this its' very basic claims, such as Adam and Eve being the first man, the great flood, Jesus Christ's miracles and others are simply not possible to be true given current scientific resources, fossils, transitional forms, logic, evidence and reason. Besides this, it has caused sadness upon pain upon famine upon war after one another and still today contributes to intolerance, racism, bigotry and homophobia across the world so that the very free will it claims to give it's followers is taken right from under their noses. You know, i could go on, but I'm convinced already.

My dad is right, it is the Christian god that i want to find after all.... To give him a well deserved smack in the face!

That's all for now x

Coming out!

Telling the world that you are gay is one of the most dreadful thoughts you will have as a teenager, young adult, married man, father or even pensioner, yet why is it that humanity has it such that we even have to?

Straight people don't have any extra pressure upon their true nature when considering revealing it to others, they're in the lucky boat of being one of those that's considered normal!

It seems to me though that, unbeknown to anyone still in the closet, actually coming out isn't all that bad or in fact the hardest part of it, it is coming out to "yourself" that is indeed the hardest part of this phenomenon and this in itself should be considered a victory once you have done it.

Face it, you've spent so many years trapped in a society full of ignorance and bigotry, that you have pushed away from your own true nature so far that you may have even considered ending your own life because of it, i know i did for many years, but once you start smiling at the fact that you are LGBT, and you don't necessarily have to be part of its' community to enjoy it, you will have found your first victory.

You 1 Society 0

You've opened up the door to eternal happiness, inner peace and self respect; closing the door to lacking self esteem, inner turmoil and submission to others' petty ignorances. Well done!

Oh and then look in the mirror, cos OH MY GOD you are beautiful, and you just might notice it moreso now, after you've done the aformentioned hard part, coming out to yourself!

My friend Lynsey works in the national physics laboratory, holding degrees in maths and physics. Today, she sent me this....

Hi John, thought you'd be interested in the following:

The temperature of heaven can be rather accurately computed. Our authority is the Bible:

Isaiah 30:26 "Moreover, the light of the moon shall be as the light of the sun and the light of the sun shall be sevenfold as the light of seven days"

Thus, heaven receives from the moon as much radiation as the earth does from the sun, and in addition seven times seven (forty nine) times as much as the earth does from the sun, or fifty times in all. The light we receive from the moon is one ten-thousandth of the light we receive from the sun, so we can ignore that. With these data we can compute the temperature of heaven: The radiation falling on heaven will heat it to the point where the heat lost by radiation is just equal to the heat received by radiation. In other words, heaven loses fifty times as much heat as the earth by radiation. Using the Stefan-Boltzmann fourth power law for radiation

(H/E)4 = 50

where E is the absolute temperature of the earth, 300°K (273+27). This gives H the absolute temperature of heaven, as 798° absolute (525°C).

The exact temperature of hell cannot be computed but it must be less than 444.6°C, the temperature at which brimstone or sulfur changes from a liquid to a gas.

Revelations 21:8:" But the fearful and unbelieving... shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone."

A lake of molten brimstone [sulfur] means that its temperature must be at or below the boiling point, which is 444.6°C. (Above that point, it would be a vapor, not a lake.)

We have then, temperature of heaven, 525°C (977°F). Temperature of hell, less than (445°F). Therefore heaven over twice as hot as hell.

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Given this scientific proof based on the bible, I have to say i'm rather glad then that i'm a sinner who won't repent after all, what say you?

John (and Lynsey)

Ignorance of blame!

Questions: Why is it that some people can not do the following?

Take blame? Be grateful? Thank someone? Be pleased for others' happiness? Say sorry?

I find often amongst, luckily not in those in whom i put my closest trust as friends, but sometimes in the outer circle, and often in simply other people who i encounter that they can have one or two of the above, in my view, negative and discourteous qualities.

Sharing in the pleasure of the people you consider in your life should be something done with enthusiasm and excitement, even if slightly exaggerated to your real feeling. As such, the same should be said for saying sorry, admitting when you're wrong, or in order to be grateful for help, advice, or gifts given to you. People are stubborn with some emotions and prefer to lock them away rather than open up their hearts. I admit i think some people, including me, are too "heart on sleeve" with certain folks, i personally don't know what makes me the way I am, I'm still studying my life degree... But i feel sadness when I don't see the good qualities I know that I have. We all have things about ourselves that we would change I bet, I know I wish I could stop being over dramatic when I'm drunk for eg, but really, it doesn't take a lot at all to exhibit the qualities I'm talking of above and i think that those who choose not to, and it is a choice, really are missing out on the feelings you get by actually embracing the above.

The selfishness of human nature is something that is somewhat inborn i feel and subsequently nurtured away from, it seems that some people haven't quite been nurtured in the right manner.

That is all for now :D

NHS

So, my friend tonight told me she has a health issue that, without indiscretion, wasn't particularly personal, but her options regarding what to do with her situation are limited, due to her being american and subsequently lives under america's way of life. This, compared to where i live, is something that is completely out of our societies expected "norm"... to be worried about health, YES, but not at all financially. We have the NHS. We know that our government will fix us using every avenue possible and we will not be asked to pay a penny towards it (though contributions are taken from wages, these are minimal) This is something we take for granted. It has such an impact on us that we don't realise, until you hear of someone you care about who has something that would be fixed here for free, but can be a financial, and with that further stressful, concern, just how lucky we are.

My friend said that the reason there is no NHS could be linked to insurance....

The more i thought about it, this is now obvious, and as we now have private insurance here also, in fact with many well paid common working class jobs, private health cover comes as standard with your salary package....

I just wonder how long it will be before we no longer have the peace of mind that my friend across the waters currently doesn't enjoy!

Get well soon friend! x

Well it appears i have this site now so i may as well use it, hello to anyone who reads, I'm john, i may have in the future issues to blog about. You may or may not read them and/or comment!

I actually only signed upto this site in order to be freely able to comment on other blogs, however, i may start fighting some causes soon :D